Tuesday, November 17, 2009,9:57 PM
Self-confidence
Do not belittle the power of self-confidence. It makes you look attractive.
I listened to my friend's in-service today and i was totally mesmerized by her confidence and power as she speaks. Even though her powerpoint slides were not as attractive and interesting as mine, the way she portrayed herself, the way she speaks, the words she used, made all of us believed that she really know her stuffs inside and out. When u meet a speaker like her, i guess it's probably too hard to say that her presentation wasn't good. I can't help comparing myself to her. I did my in-service last week and even though i put in lots of effort into it and was very confident about my slides and what i was presenting, i was not confident with myself. I had a feeling that all the audience at that time was probably thinking in the same way as i was; "if only this girl was more confident when she speaks...". And that was probably the only and yet the biggest problem i had with myself then.
If there's anything i really want to improve about myself now, it's self-confidence. I realized how the lack of confidence often defeats me and how it often make me look small and unimportant. I used to think that being unassuming was perfectly fine but i now realized that being too unassuming can be detrimental as well.
On another note, i really love my supervisor. He is passionate in teaching and always has a way to make things crystal clear for us to understand. He protects us (students) when we needed it and yet he's never too over-protective. He may point out our mistakes blatantly but he also encourages and allow us to make mistakes. Blessed with such a good supervisor, what more can i ask for?
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My 21st birthday is drawing closer but I'm not really looking forward to it. I always wanted my birthdays to be very low-profile and yet i hope it is still enjoyable and great. Not to say that my previous birthdays wasn't enjoyable or great, but there's always something that happened that made it not as enjoyable as it should be. Either it was someone that i really want to celebrate with don't remember or wasn't free or there were just somethings that i was obliged to do but didn't really feel like doing or there's just simply something bad that happened that just spoil the day. Okay, i guess i was just asking for too much sometimes... but somehow, my heart doesn't feel comfortable nor excited that it's coming soon....
